Been there…done that…
Hello Beautiful Souls,
It’s been a while since I last wrote and I really am hoping to do this more frequently to start demystifying Reiki and Healing Works so you can get a real feel for who I am and what I do! It has been a bit of a whirlwind with many changes over the last few months. Those of you who follow my Facebook and Twitter will see just how much things have changed. I wanted to write something for you as I know that everyone goes through periods in their lives where things really are shifting. Everything sort of just happens, all at once in my case. When things started shifting for me, you’ll see from my previous posts that life really wasn’t very pleasant at all. I had to experience a great deal of grief to get here. It starts with the crap, but when you’ve worked your way through it, it really is the most beautiful thing you could imagine!
I remember in my saddest moments thinking to myself, “I really don’t know if there is a way out of how this feels.” That thought in itself is heartbreaking. I had several friends who literally had to scrape me up off the floor. I could not see a way out anywhere. Everything I looked at was painted with a brick wall. I was struggling to smile, I was struggling to do anything. Everything I did just felt forced.
I think the saddest thing for me was that I didn’t feel like anyone would understand me. I couldn’t explain myself what the pain was or why I was feeling it. Much of it was coming from life situations, but just as much was unexplainable or so I thought. It was there, and it didn’t feel like it was going anywhere. BUT I had to understand that I had created this for myself and I was keeping myself in that place.
The only thing that gave me comfort at that time was to cry my eyes out and I had no control over this. It was like being dragged through broken glass and no matter how much I cried, I still couldn’t get away from that feeling I kept feeling in the pit of my stomach, my chest, the choking in my throat. That feeling of feeling completely drained and exhausted from the tears, being awake all night, not being able to eat, and then having to do it all again the next day. This went on for months and it really was torture. For me, it was the extreme, and this may not be the same for you, but I bet you can relate at some level.
Do you know what I’m talking about? Have you ever felt like this? Of course you do. We have all had moments, or weeks, periods of time like this. Its common and its not often shared as its difficult to talk about. Nothing I’m saying to you will be new to you and if you’ve felt this, you’re with someone who knows.
Hard to believe when you see me now that I came past all that. As difficult as it was to find help, I turned to Reiki. It took time to get to a point where I felt I could take responsibility for myself getting better. I was a Reiki practitioner and I couldn’t get myself out of this situation. That made me feel a bit more unworthy, but everyone needs helps sometimes. I think the moment I said to myself, “why are you doing this to yourself?” was a lightbulb moment. That was an accidental realisation, but it was powerful! I realised that like it or not, I was in control of being out of control. That’ll make sense to some of you!
I went to see my Teacher and Practitioner who really helped me to start shifting things energy wise. This has influenced the way I use my Reiki and my experiences help me to get to the core of what my clients are struggling with. I also went to see a Maori Healer called Anaru Paine. This was another intense treatment which was really physically as well as emotionally intense. Sometimes the pain goes deeper and is more physical, especially if it has been with you a long time. This influenced the Life Reboot sessions that I do for clients. Sometimes massage is a good way of releasing deep set issues. These sessions involve Reiki, coaching, guidance but also have the physical element of massage to really remove those negative emotions from your core.
What I wanted to say really was that I know that you may not totally understand Reiki or healing, but it really does work for people and my client testimonials have really given me confidence in that fact. If you can relate to any of the stuff I’ve told you about my life experiences, then Reiki is definitely worth a try. I have been there, and now I am here and I know that what I’ve been through has happened for me to have that first hand experience so that I can help get you through it.
If you’re umming and aaring, just get in touch with me and lets book you in so that we can get to work and get you where you want to go in life. Where do you want to be this time next year? It really is all up to you…I am here for you.
With Love and Light,